Empress Sassy

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 28

We all have that moment, you never know when it’s going to happen and then it hits you.  I think most of us have it happen later in life, but sadly for some I can only imagine that it happens at the loss of a dear, loved one and you realize that sense of loss, that feeling of grief that only no one can understand but you.

Others will say, I know how you feel, but how can they?  It’s your personal loss and your personal emotions that are inside you. 

However there is that other moment that also hits you when you realize that life is passing you by and people do get older and people you love will eventually die.  Yes, I know, it’s not a revelation new to the world, but for the most part we go through life, living it, experiencing it and also, sadly, taking it for granted and then there is one moment; one solitary moment we realize one day we will lose those we love and it hits us like a ton of bricks.  For those of you that have already lost some one you have loved I feel for you and I can only say, “I DON’T know what it’s like and I know it must be a horrible feeling and a sadness you can’t replace.

I knew someone that told me once, they didn’t really need their family and they wanted to make their own family with just us.  That was the saddest thing I had ever heard.  I knew then we didn’t have a chance at making it because family is what makes you who you are and keeps you strong.  My dad getting sick recently jolted me into thinking about that inevitable moments that will come.  Yes, I have loved my parents and I know they have loved me, but to wake up and know they aren’t there is the scariest thought I have ever had. 

Why?  Well for one thing, they created me and made me who I am today.  They are  my history and they have always been my present and my future.  Why would I want that to change?  I don’t want to know I can’t call them every day or have them come to my house.  I don’t want to know I can’t spend time with them at the holidays.  It’s what family is supposed to do and I love that part of my life.  Can I stop time?  Certainly not and I know I have to live every moment there is and when you have that jolt, I think this is when you realize priorities must again, be reorganized to fit those needs.

I think it’s just another stage of life we all go through and when it happens you realize you must now start this phase and be prepared.  Is that morbid?  No, it’s just reality, but you must live each day appreciating it to the fullest.  We should have all along, but we don’t. 

Life is messy and full of changes each day, stop and smell the daisies along the way and don’t get caught up in the unimportant things.  It’s not worth it. 

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 27

No matter what happens or what goes on, I can put music in my head and get focused.  I have always been this way.  I’m more focused with music in my head.  If I need to be creative and get something done under a deadline, I need music.  If I truly want to work out (and I so need to work out) then I have to put music in my head; loud music and get focused.

Angry - music helps get it out.  Sad - music helps me get things resolved.  Happy - music helps me to celebrate.  Music is the one thing that is just a way to help me express almost any emotion.  I haven’t been listening to music lately and I’m not sure why.  I have my Ipod and I just hadn’t been using it.  Too busy to fool with it maybe?  Whatever the reason, I need to realize that it keeps me focused.

Music keeps me focused, driven, more serious and if anything just more “me”.  Some people just don’t get it, but if you do you understand the need to hear the perfect music for the right moment.  I vary, and it’s strange, but I can go from Classic Mozart to Country all in the same day.  It depends on what needs to get done!

Not sure why I forget the need for this release, but I know that it makes me happy and I need to keep it around me.  The right song at the right time can change the course of my day.  Sometimes it’s OK to be a little sad or a little angry because you need to work some things out for yourself.  It’s better than taking it out on someone else isn’t it?

So, if you see me involved with my Ipod for a bit, just nod and smile.  It won’t last long I promise.

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 26

Yeah, he’s baaack, but the thing is he is living in my house. Oh yeah, I’m checking for the three 6’s after the last couple of days!  ha ha.  Angel child by wellness, Damien by illness. It’s the medicine.  This new medicine is white, thick and milky-like and I wouldn’t want to take it either, but I’m giving it to Damien.

Jerry and I have to do the “hold down” approach and it’s just not pleasant.  He was taking the cough medicine and the fever medicine just fine so things were lovely and then we had to go back to the Doctor as things went down hill with the cough in the chest.  I knew when she upped the medicine we were in trouble.  I just had a hunch.  Sure enough, it was even flavored, but just not good enough.

Damien showed up and just refused to take it.  Jerry had to come over before he went to work and I’m sure I’ll have to do the same in the morning when I drop him off at his house before I leave for work.  It’s just scary how a child can change personalities at medicine time.  Makes you believe in Heaven and Hell, I can tell ya that!

Wish us luck, we have to take this stuff for 10 days………….10 days people.  I don’t know if I can do 10 days!

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 26

This is a cute, little movie for kids, but not great.  I put it in for Noah yesterday while he was sick.  It didn’t hold his attention like other movies, but there was no huge excitement. 

It’s about 3 flies that get to go into space and again, cute but no big excitement to hold kids attention span.  It might be cuter for smaller kids.  

It was enough to appease him while he was sick and not feeling well so it did the trick for us yesterday.  Christopher Lloyd plays the Grandpa Fly and he’s kind of good in it, but no other big names really.

I wouldn’t rush out and rent it for the kids!

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 26

Sorry about the site being down, I didn’t realize my renewal was up and needed to be renewed!  Noah was sick and my dad is back in the hospital so I didn’t check it right away.

So, I’m back up and running smoothly again.  I’m sure people were devasted right?  ha ha.

Just wanted to let you know I dropped the ball, but I’ve picked it up and I’m running again. 

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 24

Am I the only one watching this show on TNT?  Well if I am you people need to get on board!  The season finale was awesome and this show just rocks.

They said after the show they are already back in production to make new shows for the summer so if you HAVEN’T seen it you will have a chance this summer.

I LOVE this show and it’s great.  It’s full of action and the personality mix is perfect!  Timothy Hutton is doing an awesome job running the show.

If you haven’t watched it you should check it out.  Oh and ladies, the guys are not too shabby, that’s all I’m saying…………you know how I love my Tuesday night line up!

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 23

With my first child, as most do, I was crazy organized and wanted everything to be perfect.  I had all of her clothes organized, the room was perfect, I sterilized everything and if went anywhere I had that diaper bagged packed for a natural disaster.  I was awesome.  What did it get me?  Nothing but organized “things”!

Now I’m a lot older with Noah, I’m working a different job, I feel more tired, I’m a LOT more relaxed and I just don’t seem to be as organized.  My mother thinks my life is a mess.  Is it really?  If I died tomorrow would people really condemn me for the fact that my house was a little messy and I didn’t put all of Noah’s toys away the day before I died?  I would hope they would know the reason they weren’t put away is that we played until the last minute that he was up and then it made me behind on doing my other stuff.

Most of the time I’m behind on all of my stuff because I’m playing with Noah, doing things for Noah or taking care of Noah.  Isn’t that what we are supposed to do?  I get up at 6:30 AM and leave the house at 8:00 AM, I work until 6:00 PM and pick him up and I get home around 6:45 (unless we run behind).  We eat supper, play and get a bath.  By that time it’s bedtime and we are lucky to be in bed by 9:00 - 9:30.  Even at that I feel guilty that I don’t spend enough time with him!

After he goes to bed I have a limited amount of time to do whatever I chose to do; laundry, clean something or try to have a moment to do bills, organize thoughts or whatever.  The point - there is limited time and then I have to go to bed so I can start over.  This is a daily grind and people wonder why I can’t get organized?? 

Weekends are packed with errands and other things, but you can’t do too much or he’s exhausted for Monday.  If you do have yard work, big house cleaning or other things, it just sets you back.  Heaven forbid if you travel, spend the day away or do something fun because it sets you back days.  Oh, and personal time, what is that?  I have forgotten what that is these days.  And the personal favorite, “You should date, or get a hobby for yourself.”  (as if I could fit that in where?)

Now, it all sounds bad, but here is the thing, I wouldn’t trade one, single, crazy moment because to me, that is what is important.  Not the perfect house, the perfect clean windows and all that stuff.  I manage and I do a pretty good job considering.  It’s not up to others standards, but for me, without any help I do OK in my book. 

Now, what does aggravate me is the comments and suggestions that I need to try harder to be more organized or try harder to be a better “grandma” as it would just be better for me.  Well just for the record, I like me.  I have liked me for some time now and I don’t have a 5 year plan!!  Those don’t work for me and life is what it is!  People with the plans just need to plan without me and I have to just be me.  Every day isn’t good, but every day isn’t bad and that’s OK by me.

What is important is that I have people to love and people love me back.  Sometimes I’m just surprised who they truly are!

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 22

We had our birthday party today and a good time was had by all.  It was great because turning 4, we finally, for the first time got excited about our party and we actually looked forward to the event.

Diego was the theme (except for the cake it was a Pirate Ship, which totally rocked), but all in all Diego was everywhere else! 

We played games, passed out treat bags, opened some presents, ate some food, played with some toys and just had some fun.  Birthday parties do require a lot of preparation and work don’t they?  If you have them at home its down right exhausting.  There is something to be said about having them outside the house!  No clean up!

The last two days of preparation and clean up is just enough to make you need a vacation day!  As long as the little ones have fun that’s all that matters.  The gifts were mostly Army, action figures and Army tanks and trucks.  We are into action figures these days. 

Now that all the stuff has been put away and the mess is cleaned up you can say it was worth it!  It’s time to head to bed and hope to get enough sleep to start another crazy week.  How much sleep can you get and be functional?  ha ha! 

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 22

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO CARRIE! 

I hope you had a great Birthday and celebrated ROYAL STYLE.

posted by EmpressSassy on Feb 21

OK so I picked up a bag of these speckled, Whopper, malted milk ball, eggs the other night at the store and that was just a huge mistake. 

Aren’t these little eggs addictive?  I won’t be purchasing any more of these during the Easter holiday.  I just couldn’t quit eating them and I was just sick.  I had to throw the rest away to stop eating them.  I don’t even like malted milk balls in general.  What is up with that?  Maybe it’s because they were all pretty and multi-colored!  Who knows but I’m done with the speckled eggs! Geesh!

I like Easter candy; I always like to buy the eggs, the traditional bunny (for someone else as I don’t like plain chocolate), the caramel filled bunnies (YUM) and of course you always have to have PEEPS in the basket - it’s a must.  Easter candy is just fun, I don’t care who you are right?  There is nothing more fun that giving or receiving an Easter basket.  You can be 3 years old or 90 years old and it’s just fun!

I just have to learn moderation on the speckled eggs!